So much has happened since my last entry. All the holidays are past. I've become a year older and I have joined the ranks of the unemployeed so that makes a huge difference. Probably the biggest change is that I've been diagnosed with Major Depression in late January, now after a month I've made some progress, (though not as great as I would like), and I think in the next month I'll be doing cartwheels .  My wife is such a saint through this all, as I've always said to all of you that know me I consider myself so blessed to have such an incredible woman to share all of my life with. We've had a lot of ups and downs over the last 3-4 years but through it all we still seem to be able to smile and laugh, sometimes after crying together. Well I'll write more soon to update more.......... Have a great week......... KB

Well we did it with 34 days left we went out and bought our Christmas tree. It's a 6 1/2 Ft pre-lite artifical from Wallyworld. We didn't have it in mind when we went shopping we just saw it and knew this was the tree we wanted. When we moved from Las Vegas we sold our old one so it was either go out and buy a real one or do what we did and buy one that we could use for a few years to come. So we arrive home box in hand do we put it away or do we put it up? I think you know what we did, yep we pulled out those ornaments we kept, put together the tree and decorated it all in about an hour. Shawn and I always enjoy putting up the tree together so with our schedules being so different and our traditional Thanksgiving deadline looming (I'm working on Thanksgiving too) we decided that we would start enjoying our holiday season early. If it was my decision i would just keep it up all year oh how I love Christmas. As I get older spiritually things seem to mean so much more. It is truly an amazing time of the year. More to come as we get closer.   

I can't believe it's almost that time again. As I write this there is only 39 days left until Santa arrives and you know he's never late. Having moved from Las Vegas with just the clothes on our backs and the few things we could fit into our van. Lucky for us we did retain a small Xmas collection, our prized airlooms.  being what it is I think we'll have to be happy with just having what we have this holiday season and concentrate on getting presents and being able to give back to those that need it much more than we do. There are so many displaced people this year that must stay in the forefront of our minds so that they can continue to heal while going through their heartships. No matter how hard I think I have it I only have to look beyond my own self pity to see how blessed I truly am. My favorite movie around this time of the year is "It's a Wonderful Life", for those who may have not seen this wonderful movie it is a classic tale. It's always been a hope of mine to be as caring and compassionate to my fellow man as the self sacrificing George Bailey. As the story grows and things seem to be slipping away from George he still finds that he is willing to take the blame for his often forgetful Uncle Billy who mishandles $6,000. George who takes over a struggling business after his father dies and puts his own life dreams of college and traveling on hold, then gives his younger brother his $$ for college and tells him to go in his place, etc.. then with the aid of a Guardian Angel, Clarence, who shows him just how different things would be had he never being born at all (as he had wished), and touched the lives that he did. Drawing to a close, and with the love of his wife, family, friends and all of those people he touched over the years George Bailey becomes the richest man in Bedford Falls. What a blessing this movie is, it is such a reminder to me of just how much one person can really do. You can be a shinning star to someone by just putting others first, making them feel that they matter and just doing what is right even when it might hurt to do so. Other movies I love at this time of year are: Plains, Trains & Automobiles, The Preachers Wife, Christmas Vacation, The Santa Claus, and of course A Charlie Brown Christmas. I've not seen it in a long time but another one from my youth I love was Emmet Otters Jugtown Christmas. Share your moments too..KB  

Well it's about time that I put in my first entry. I really didn't know what I wanted to say/ My profile says most of what I would say about myself. This blog is more about thanking my beautiful wife for introducing me to the fun this can be. Tomorrow will be a new beginning for me as I start a new job working for Spherion/Dell in the Dell inside sales department. I'm not sure what to expect but I looking forward to it. At my age I should not be starting over but alais I am and I can only look forward and not behind. Since May 2003 we've moved 3 times South, Fl - Las Vegas, NV - Central, Texas and I have had 9 previous jobs, none for more than just 3 or 4 months. It's been a struggle trying to keep our footing. Each time we moved we've done it because in our hearts it was the right thing to do. We moved from Fl - NV to be closer to family during their trying times with illiness. I suggest never doing that if you can avoid to for anyone that might read this. We not only up rooted our teenage son but we relied on the promises of long term housing by others, spend most of our $$$ moving and upon arriving there were put in the middle of a domestic fieud, (not of our making), that would cause us to have to move only 3 weeks after arriving. So now we were in a strange place,with little money and looking for work

that would generate immediate income. The pay in this area of the country is not too good. I had to settle for mostly commissioned sales positions in which I had to spend a lot of money traveling to see clients, (spend lots of $$ on gas) and to meet goals. I had and still have a problem trying to sell people things that they do not need. I don't mean I don't like "Up selling" I do, what I mean is that some people do not need what you are trying to sell them at all and I don't want to sell that way. Well in the 14 months we were in LV I had 7 jobs. 2 were working for popular "Rent to own" type of companies that work you 60-70 hrs a week and care only about the bottom line and advancement. For me after my 1st experience with one of them and losing 30 lbs or more moving applicances, especially big screen TV's up 2 flights of stairs in the 3 months I worked there I realized that earning a paycheck had to be easier. While much younger people sometimes called the shots I think they liked seeing if the 45+ guy could do the job. Well I did and when I left they were sorry to see me go. I know this all sounds bitter and I am but I created this site for myself and anyone else that just wants to come in and put up their feet and VENT. I used to be a business owner, until my partner got terminally ill and we closed the business. In all that time (1988-2002), I always treated my people with respect. I believe in total fairness cross the board and detest those that treat others less. If you want to talk or Vent just do so. This is your site as much as mine..........KB