Well trying to find "the right job" is not as easy as I had hoped so far. Looking for something that's doesn't require one to be associated with a lot of pressure while allowing me a little easing into a routine has not been that easy yet. Now that school is almost over there will be even less jobs to find. I am feeling so much better, just physically a little tired but my mind is clearer now than it has been in a long time. This town is a great little town but the jobs are hard to come by. I have a lead on a position working 27-30 hrs a week at a PakMail but we'll see if it comes about. In the meantime I'm checking everything and every avenue to find a good fit. It's funny to say this as I was saying to my wife today it seems that my life is starting over again. My past only seems like it was a movie Ive watched instead of something I lived. My wife, our son CJ and my wife's immediate family have been so wonderful during it all and they are the only people that seem like they belong in my life. My immediate family and friends I've not seen in such a longtime seem like only a distant memory during this illness. I mean no disrespect nor bitterness to any of you that read this so please don't take this the wrong way because I love you all dearly. It has been such an amazing journey since late January when everything hit rock bottom, I've had to learn to understand my feelings again. I've had to realize what my life is all about and what I need to accomplish in the time I have let. But mostly I've had to open up my mind and flush out what didn't belong in order to start to become the person I've always wanted to be. I've spend so much of my life taking in the pain and not letting go of it but now with the help of some wonderful people and the most incredible wife anyone could have I feel so much better and hope this is the start of the real life I've always dreamed of.